Blog by: Katherine Lily Mae Harris
#Nature vs. #nurture is an interesting topic of observation and discussion both. Until we are older, how can we truly view our nature accurately?
To be #independent was my nature. To #harmonize. To #sing. To #dance. To #paint. To #run. To be around #wilderness and #animals. #Water helped me feel at #peace. To interact with #energy. I was in tune and emotional.
#Surviving being abused, more than I ever wanted to acknowledge or admit, has caused me to #wish for a different nature. One that instead of wishing for harmony, fought.
#Neutralize. #Energy.
When there were difficult moments in life you had to assess your size, strength, & capability, in a split second, so often, my nature was to project energy and harmonies that allowed a situation to go better than it otherwise would have.
I have been witness to it working.
After enduring so much, truly unspeakable, trauma I became so different. It was like that little #alchemist had to leave a piece of her behind. I remember in high school, I rarely showed my #athleticism that was so present all my life. If you knew me.
In highschool I used to practice kicking over a man’s head in my #stilettos and basically being ready to #run, or #climb, no matter my footwear, which usually were stiletto platforms…..
Nature vs. nurture:
When you really believe in a better World, no matter the hardships you’ve survived.
After living life and seeing that some people are really horrible, it makes you revisit that whole, ‘forgiveness for everyone’ topic.
There are more good than bad. That is true.
My nature is #Magick.
In 2022 I cut my #hair for the #women #life #freedom movement in Iran and I did so, while wearing a badger bone. I described it as using #badger medicine. The energy of a badger. I got made fun of, and targeted. The hair I placed in the #sea was dipped in bacon fat and given to my #Bostonterrier, with some added poison that December.
I tell you what though, badgers don’t mess around. They cool, but they crazy!
Sort of like the #capybara is cool with everyone, always. That’s how I always felt. Like with #communication everything can be resolved easily.
When I was a young person and I took a #karate class at the community center, I loved it! A lot! I just got embarrassed because I was a little dancing, singing, gymnast, rugged girl, so I went down into #splits no troubles blocking those throws (it wasn’t punches, it was objects) when I realized that it was sort of on display (this was community lessons, not private) my shyness took over and I stopped going.
Now as a crippled, my goal is to always be able to #defend myself!
I feel like each day, am I ‘Glenda the good #witch (alchemist) or am I the bad witch……’ (obvious movie reference) I guess now the choice is up to each person who interacts with me.
When you’ve been tormented as much as I have, and you are a real alchemist, wow. It really triggers some visceral responses……
Like wondering
‘Why don’t I use ‘bad Magick’ on them….its #defensive Magick and happens only when they harm me……?’
Hexes and vexes
Curses and hearses…..
Then being like….:
‘Don’t do the bad Magick just yet….’
Because you know, you were #praying for everyone to be forgiven and for them to tell the truth to who they lied to, and misled.
Nature vs nurture:
You believe in a better World, then WOOP-it isn’t a better World at all.
You see that all your life the people who said, ‘Someday you’ll see….’
(Damn right I do, I see clearly now…………..a bunch of a((——- wanted to be something they weren’t, and they needed me (or somebody else) as a scapegoat, so happily watched me be tormented in place of them and then tried to ruin my life as I’m about to turn 40 and a man just crippled me over five years ago ………?
Who are the ones who should be embarrassed??
Absolutely them.
Nature vs. nurture.
When you know that lots of people on earth feel how you do. #Believe that we are not aggressive by nature. Most people all want the same things. Safety, nourishing food, clean water and a safe place to live and have family/career/etc.
I believed that through communicating about what I survived here, that for everyone’s families future, it could change. It could become safer.
I #believed, because I stayed forgiving instead of perpetuating the same pointless wars that never stop, no matter how publicized or not. That’s been my nature all my life. To #mediate situations. It usually goes well, unless web traps ruin it.
Nature vs. nurture:
My #spiritual and #Magickal practice has always been on point. Very #powerful and #strong. So I just kept using it.
I will also continue to act as #feral as necessary, to prevent ever being raped or attacked again.
Eventually I will do more than practice to defend myself, I will invest in it. Until then I’ll use my Magick, a haka, speak in tongues, whatever…….its happening.
I am a #Magickal woman, connected to spirit, that has been through hell. I am a #survivor! I will keep moving on because it is my nature.
Let’s try to make a world that allows everyone’s nature to be #safe.
For me, my best #expression of self was in movement and #visionary rests. As a #Shaman in quest. As a #Sufi in meditation. As a #Witch in ritual. In art, in dance, in spirit. In song.
Running mountains made me feel so strong and safe.
Now; I have to redesign it all, but I’ll find a new flow.
I am a survivor.
That’s my nature.
I will no longer be considered #resilient, for surviving the unnecessary hardship forced upon me by dishonorable web traps.
I will be forever a #warrior woman who survived.
