Angels, Autonomic Dysreflexia & DEATH

‘Eleven 11’painting.

When I was hit in the spine with a chair almost 5 years ago now, I lost consciousness.

After that, I proceeded to die/lose consciousness 7 times over the span of the following year and a half, of what is called autonomic dysreflexia. A secondary issue for spinal cord injury onset by neurogenic bladder:bowels or skin issues and also caused by too much physical activity.

I had to learn my ‘new’ crippled bodies limitations.

Since I am T7-10 ambulatory ‘reminiscent’ brown sequard, I am at risk for it. Autonomic dysreflexia.

 I did not know that until January 2022 when I learned about it.

 I just knew I was dying/losing consciousness and that it was happening due to blunt force trauma to the spine.

I told some people I worked with that. I told the doctors too.

Once I found out what it was, I started to be a whole lot more careful with my body and injury.

On January 11, 2021

I started to lose consciousness from this and I got into the bed, laying down and deciding to die in the sun. I opened the blinds. It was such a peaceful death.

Below is the notes I wrote when I ‘woke up.’

I saw godI think I died twice today.

It’s not the first time since this has happened. The first time I asked him/God not to save me, because I felt him (his presence and I did not want to leave it) & I didn’t believe humans deserve it.

They are cruel.

But he did anyways. (Brought me back to life)

Then multiple times it would happen. (Autonomic dysreflexia from blunt force trauma)

Earlier, I saw a bright light, in the shape of him. A cat again too. Odd. Why a cat? Eyes! I see eyes everywhere.

Cat eyes earlier.

I will paint them.

Then a conversation I don’t remember.

(End note)

I didn’t know  it was spoken of that angels were commonly duplicated the way I saw them in this vision during death. I only knew what my own experiences in this time were.

The many deaths I experienced in this time caused me to feel more close to God/Allah/Shiva then anyone on earth. It was a beautiful state of mind.

Of course once I learned why I was dying, it became a little more serious to me. I tried to prevent it and learn about it.

God had a specific message for me in regards to my ‘purpose’ on earth and calling, I argued because I wanted to stay Dead, the only thing I had to live for was my dog.

Now I have stayed alive and almost lost consciousness from it an 8th time, but managed to prevent it.

This is major for the spinal cord injured community.

I already had a profoundly deep spiritual practice before this, after this, I will be forever changed. Not just my body, but my view of earth and life.