With this injury I now have to set a timer to do what I once did, without thinking about it.
I have been a dancer since I was two.
A natural born dancer, singer, artist and healer.
Preferring to share my gifts with nature. Nature is an inviting and supporting place for your gifts. There is no jealousy or harmful gazes-only love and divinity.
Now, in order to still be who I am, to feel my joy, I set a timer.
It’s the way I can still wake up each day and find something fulfilling and meaningful for my soul.
I made timed musical playlists intentionally-sorted by ‘slow groove’ or a little more ‘free movement’ playlist.
(Based off of pain level and my bodies ability)
Whenever we are faced with injury, we have to ask ourselves what is most important to us and our soul? What is our purpose and how can we prioritize this?
The man who crippled me wanted to take my joy and dreams away. He wanted to shatter my ability to live MY purpose and fulfill my ‘God/Allah given job’ I refuse to let that happen.
When you find what you love, do it. Don’t let anyone stop you.
Find ways to integrate it into your life. Set timers. Prioritize and make a ‘new’ schedule for yourself & your ‘new’ body.
On days I dance for a longer period, I can’t do my walks; a huge change from a mountain hike and working all day on my feet-being a non performing athlete.
These sacrifices so many take for granted are a necessary change to help me accept this ‘new’ body.
One day it may heal or it may not.
Someday I can add ambulatory devices that will help me integrate more into society-
Until then, I make the necessary changes to stay as positive as I can with the current situation.
I am grateful for what I can do and as one of my favorite articles said ‘focus on the 9000 things you can do, not the 1000 you can’t’
Even if those 1000 were your favorite, just don’t give up.
Keep aspiring to do more or to stay at a safe and comfortable level for yourself.
Be your own advocate.
While our instinct is to keep up with society, if it’s killing you, literally (autonomic dysreflexia is life threatening) it is your duty to rethink what it is you need.
It is your duty to redesign a life that is supportive of you and your healing or changed circumstances.
I learned, once again, that no one was coming to ‘save me’ or ‘help me.’
I needed to do it for myself.
As I ALWAYS have in my life.
I’ve been my own hero- EVERY single time.
Be strong and remember always-know thyself.
Be your own advocate and never back down when speaking your truth.