In my life I had a previous friendship that as my therapist described, was like, ”diving into the deep end before testing the water’
(a pool reference) which could be refreshing or a nightmare.
This was a very accurate analogy for what I experienced.
This woman was not a good person to me at all. She pretended to have the same interests for just long enough to pretend to ‘be me’ to people she tried to web trap set.
I will never forget her showing me the movie ‘Boy in the striped pajamas’
A movie where accidentally a German and a Jewish child get switched, after becoming friends during WW2; it is a sad and memorable movie.
Unfortunately she was showing it to me because she signed on with powerful and corrupt people to try and do that very thing, be me.
The amount of time I have had to reflect on this and the many other things she said in our relatively short friendship, has been lengthened because of having an ambulatory spinal cord injury, caused by my ex, the henchman involved in this, because who would’ve believed all the lies told about me, if I was able bodied and left my previous relationship?
No one, or only a few.
To everyone that ‘sold out’ for this to happen to me and many others, do you realize what happens to us?
Or do you only care about what you gain?
In a World filled with fake people, I have only ever tried to be Me. Only ever competed with a younger variation of myself.
This is what I told her, despite her being nine years older, ‘You should only ever try to BE YOU’
Unfortunately everyone involved in her facade has allowed for this to go on so long that the web trap is so thick it’s suffocating.
Between hackers having access to our information and every aspect of our lives, or the fact that to these little contraptions, time can be linear. If you understand satellites, quartz, & other very practical aspects. It is simple to see how one’s life can be destroyed easily.
Thee are so many of us ‘on the bottom’ who have this happen to us.
What I wanted for my life and for myself, I guess no one ever really knew.
It didn’t matter to me before, I was happy as a waitress and bartender, working to achieve my goals.
As I’ve stated before, now I’m pushed so far from society, coming back is seemingly impossible.
All because of injustice and a physical injury given to me by a man.
The injustices I’ve faced since then are many.
What to do in a world that is only sue happy and cares not for the harm they cause others?
Guess I’ll just keep doing what I do best.
Being me.
In my anger, my sadness, my frustration, my happiness, my grumpiness, my pain…..I’ll let it flow like a river.
Im good at that.
Please only ever try to be you.
And as a famous saying goes, ‘if you have to snuff out the candle of another, to light your own, there is something wrong with you’
Im paraphrasing.
Similarly, many have gotten away with sabotaging my life. Stealing my style, writing, art, songs, dance, premonitions, my gifts….
But they will NEVER be me.
Even if they fool people.
I know the truth, so do they and the few who habanero. (That means “catch up” for the big leagues. )
Most importantly the Universe knows. That’s good enough for me.
Stay human, be vigilant.
This world is not one of honor.
I had lots of hope for my 38 years on this earth I went through hell & in 2024 I just have me, myself and the universal force.
Im proud of myself and that’s the most important thing of all.
I a, a woman of integrity.
I could’ve had whatever I wanted too.
I chose to speak up for the World.
If you utilized my intelligence or life and watched me suffer, I hope the same happens to you.
Like I’ve always explained, when attempting to manifest anything, you manifest what’s made for you.
If you like someone’s cup, you don’t manifest THEIR cup, you manifest your own 
I am grateful for that friendship.
When I left it and decided to not be a part of her life anymore, I moved forward wishing her the best.
I didn’t talk about things. I didn’t try and embarrass herr her family.
While she had to spread lies about me.
Usually, these are inconsequential, because able bodied, nothing would have ever stopped me, in fact, even crippled, nothing would have stopped me…..too much sabotage and lots of what is now.
When someone’s lies about you, come in between you being able to move o forward and receive medical care as a crippled woman, that’s a real serious issue.
I’ve been through enough, everyone can keep threatening me with lawsuits for finally speaking the truth, I will never understand why they can lie about me for years and cause this to be my life, but I can’t speak up because this has gone on long enough, damaging my life.
I’m so done with all of it.
Especially the ingrates of the World.
I’ve a,ways known how to live ‘on the bottom’ it’s where I’ve been all my life.
I’ve never required much.
Stay human. Song reference.
I am
Katherine Lily Mae Harris
38 in 2024
A woman
Who deserves life and my freedom
(This oppression has gone on long enough)