Kabbalah:
spheres of Geburah & Hesod
Paintings & blog by:
Katherine Lily Mae Harris
It is not easy for me to talk about the complex emotions that occurred during this time period.
I endured far more than I should have been required to.
I was painting my meditations and my connections to the stars, I was continuing to enrich my spiritual life and being forced to endure abuse that noone would like to experience themselves.
I would’ve never wanted to post this in depth about what I endured. I usually preferred to turn everything to spirit (spiritual reasons of justification in order to endure another’s harm) and continue on my path. I posted about the ‘joys and beauty of life’ instead of the hardships.
Being crippled forced me to use my voice: I no longer had a body that was able to just keep moving forward, regardless of trauma or abuse endured. This caused me to speak up-eventually and out, in more ways than just art, music and dance.
Hashtagging on Instagram #needadoctor
#hehitmeinmyspine
I was dying because of blunt force trauma and didn’t yet learn the terms ‘autonomic dysreflexia’ caused by ‘neurogenic bowels, neurogenic bladder and skin issues’ all stemming from the fact that the brain and body connection was altered after that spine hit. As a non performing athlete, a belly dancer, a middle aged woman, I know my body well.
It all became a joke to people, Instead of being alarming that I tolerated so much; alarming that I was continuing to be forced to endure things, no one doing the forcing, would want to endure themselves.
How much rape; abuse and oppression did I need to endure to satisfy the ones doing it?
It’s never enough.
These corrupt individuals needed their lies believed, regardless of the human trafficking, rape and abuse, they caused in doing so. (Corrupt government and drug dealers that care about only themselves and not what they do to a community. Often times the combination of government and dealers, whether by marriage or other connection, is more dangerous because they will do anything to get away with it. It required choosing a side for government, unless they planned on changing the way everything was done.) I endured hell because of them. I am not a dealer, not a trafficker, not in government and gain nothing by any of them.
I only expected them to be honorable, (they are all older than me and should be ashamed of what they are proud of) I expected honor of the honorless, because they know what I have endured, I believed they would CHOOSE to make a safer World for EVERYONE, not just them-
I became a broken toy to the man who crippled me.
The man I broke up with only 6 weeks before he crippled me, but he convinced me to stay.
A man that after crippling me, made me feel bad for HIM.
I should be proud of that though; proud I have so much humanity within me, that I can forgive that deeply. A man that continues to somehow get away with what he has done, with the help of corrupt individuals here, working in government and part of the community, that chooses to turn a blind eye.
They wouldn’t if it was happening to them though…….
What I couldn’t forgive was that the people who tormented and harmed me, didn’t even care what they caused to my life. They KNOW I’m telling the truth. I made them human beings in my eyes, I endured unjust hardships, rape and abuse, that they knowingly caused to me, & when I stayed forgiving, they took advantage of my nature, aligned, and acted like I was the ‘trouble.’
God:Allah:shiva:universe, knows the truth though.
I have studied many spiritual modalities.
I am a bloodline and spiritually gifted woman.
A Kahina. (Islamic mystic. Sufi, Witch, Shaman woman)
The ‘All mother and Father’ painting speaks of the consciousness of the all seeing, the all protective, all powerful force and source of existence.
To me, they exist in the heavens, but also in everything.
No matter what human beings do to allow injustice to occur, knowingly; these entities, know the truth, can’t be fooled and are indeed protective of beings on this earth (hell.)
Many of us know and realize that when we die, our lives begin.
Not in a way that disrespects life, but a way that honors and understands that on this earth molecule, not everything is as it seems.
This time period has began to be sort of enlightening, but individuals needed to fully understand the truth, it required humility on behalf of those causing injustice.
It was the only way to bring about true change. To understand the truth. To know it. To unite. To do these things based off human principles.
It isn’t an uprising, not unless one is forced upon us, by their continued violence.
How much medical torture should one endure?
How much oppression?
If someone continues to harm my life, does that give me the right to harm them back?
When I tell the truth and am the one persecuted, what message does that send?
I’ve been dealing with this all my life here.
I’m a #39 year old #Woman.
I had to speak up because I am #crippled now and was dying of blunt force trauma.
I wanted to #help others, but I believed that was occurring naturally through life in the ways I could, even if they were small.
I believed that in its own time, everything would work out.
This time period, it forced an unnatural #flow to life. People began realizing that if they didn’t block my path, the #truth would be revealed. If revealed, their #system of lies, destroyed.
I’m going to keep speaking the truth. I’ve endured plenty of #rape, #abuse and torment here, followed by the usual silencing that goes with it. They can keep claiming I’m the ‘trouble.’ They can continue covering up what goes on. Once you see the truth, you can’t unsee it and it also makes a whole lot more sense than all their lies put together, no matter how many take the silencing payout, claiming to protect their #families, but getting far more people #killed and #tormented in doing so, than if they had been honorable to begin with.
The #Earth #mother #painting is a reference to the love and protection we all have within us. The earth is part of who we are, it is our home, it is part of what we are meant to be #protecting.
This, if not properly taught, can cause societies principals to become skewed.
We require #guidance in a society that is halal. This is not an extremist view of moral standards. It is a really logical approach. At first, seeming a little complex, but never impossible and never oppressing of a human being.
This is human principles being defined in a way that values our lives and the process of #evolution.
I painted this when the #comet ‘neowise’ was passing through.
Years before I did a meditation that involved my birth. I saw the #Universe as I was being born, there was a green light streak in the sky. Like a comet. I then googled what was going on in the sky at the time of my birth. A comet, called Hailey’s comet, was passing through our atmosphere.
I feel there is a very interesting and undeniably real connection between us and the stars. Not only does microbiology and Astro physics prove this-but also any spiritual being or ancient culture knows this to be true.